letter from Trieste...Rilke's Duino Elegies

Who, if I cried out, would hear me among the angels' hierarchies? and even if one of them pressed me suddenly against his heart:I would be consumed in that overwhelming existence. For beauty is nothing but the beginning of terror, which we are still just able to endure, and we are so awed because it serenely disdains to annihilate us.
Every angel is terrifying. And so I hold myself back and swallow the call-note of my dark sobbing.Ah, whom can we ever turn to in our need?
Not angels, not humans, and already the knowing animals are aware that we are not really at home in our interpreted world.Perhaps there remains for us some tree on a hillside,which every day we can take into our vision; there remains for us yesterday's street and the loyalty of a habit so much at ease when it stayed with us that it moved in and never left. Oh and night: there is night,when a wind full of infinite space gnaws at our faces.


Whom would it not remain for--that longed-after, mildly disillusioning presence,which the solitary heart so painfully meets.Is it any less difficult for lovers?But they keep on using each other to hide their own fate.Don't you know yet? Fling the emptiness out of your arms into the spaces we breathe;perhaps the birds will feel the expanded air with more passionate flying.



Yes--the springtimes needed you. Often a star was waiting for you to notice it.A wave rolled toward you out of the distant past,
or as you walked under an open window, a violin yielded itself to your hearing.All this was mission. But could you accomplish it?Weren't you always distracted by expectation, as if every event announced a beloved? (Where can you find a place to keep her, with all the huge strange thoughts inside you going and coming and often staying all night.)But when you feel longing, sing of women in love; for their famous passion is still not immortal.Sing of women abandoned and desolate (you envy them, almost) who could love so much more purely than those who were gratified.Begin again and again the never-attainable praising; remember: the hero lives on; even his downfall was merely a pretext for achieving his final birth.But Nature, spent and exhausted, takes lovers back into herself, as if there were not enough strength to create them a second time.